(no subject)

oh! I guess I should type it now before I forget it. *smirk* A few nights ago I dreamt - you know how when it's someone's birthday and you organize a surprise party and you get clowns and stuff- well i dreamt it was my birthday and Jessy had gotten me fifteen fucking drag queen!! lol I rememer feeling very giddy about it in my dream. I was squealing and bouncing and giggling. Poor drag queens were quite shocked by my reaction heee. Oh! there's no way I'm forgetting that one particular Drag Queen in my dream. She was the first to come in and she was sooo tall and not womanly. And she had these flashy long curly red hair and that long purple dress with a crack in the front, but she was just soo tall that her dress didn't fit right and because the crack rose too high we could see her crotch in tights. God must be a mix between watching too much QaF and hanging out too much with Jonathan (naw you can nevah get enough of Jonathan *huggles* n_n)

...

and then Jessy came at my house and woke me up. He was back from the school coming to pick up his grade report and I told him and he wa slike. ":|I'd never do that. *rolls eyes*" *sigh* grrr fuck off jessy! way to wake me up. the day's not begun and you've already ruined it. I've gotten myself the worse dysunfctional gay best friend ever. *sigh* not so best anymore it seems. he called me the other day asking if i was free next week and i was so glad thinking he'd ask me if we could hang out or stuff but fuck the little shitface wanted me to go to one of his fucking politics meeting with Oooooh! what's-his-face deputee! 'and stephanie and marie-helene will be there' pisses me waaaaay off. He's got some nerve. He knows how emotionally unstable i get when I'm left alone for too long and what? he's having fun poking my buttons. He fucking knows i'm a possessive jaleous bitch and he also knows that I *need* reassurance when it comes to friendship and all he does with me is cancel plans, PISSES ME OFF! Fuck jessy! after all these years you pretend you know me, well i've got some news! if you don't know I need you to show you care once in while you have no idea who i am. i am this needy emotionnaly unstable piece of fat shit who needs you to be the friend you always promised you'd always be. if everyone is so intent on making me believe that they care where are they when i fucking need them!

god. this was oing to be a happy post about a funny dream i had and see how it turned out. I posted a few hours ago and my mood was CALM! now I'm sad and drained and pissed off.

Thank you Jessy for ruining my mood everytime I think about you. *sulks*

*sigh* fuck me for being so needy, I drive people away.

I looooooooooooooooo<3oooooooooooove you jessy (in a friendly way there, no misunderstanding)... why can't you see it ;-;

anyway...
*points icon* heee! ^^;;;
"Y s'est rien passé tantot dans l'char. Mais j'aurais aimé ça en ostie!EN OTSIE!" aw poor conflicted thing *huggles*

(no subject)

Translating songs is a pretty good exercise and I'm bored out of my mind. Another one by KYO and the next will prolly be by Projet Orange.

BTW if anyone who happens to be stumbling upon this, wether I know you or not, I don't care, if there's something you wish to have translated from French to English or vice versa, then please, please, please, pelase, ask. I LOVE to translate and to feel useful. So I unpatiently awaits request… Yeah, right. u_u;

( Le Chemin )

You know you have now life when you update your LJ three times in one day XD

. *shrugs* I'm working a lot lately and I don't even mind. It's what gets me out of the house, make me see people. Sure my McPals are not the best of my friends but most of them are people who's presence makes me feel ok.

Writing in this livejournal makes me feel good. I write here the things I'm too embarassed to tell my friends. It makes blow off some steam when I'm angry, I can bitch and moan without bothering anyone.

Here is my true self, and I could never show it to anyone in real life because that's jst how I am. I sure ain't saying that the world would be better if everyone was like that, but it's what,s works best for me. I just can't let oethers see my true colors. But hey, that's how I find my happiness. I mean who could I go to and say "I was in a shitty mood this morning, but then I took a shower and sang and danced and now I feel chipper!" lol and it's true. ^^;; Oh and spreading Cheeze Wheeze on a whole 9 grains bread must some kind of blasphemy in the bible of healty people so my dinner is a big fuck off to them *smirk*

And now I'm off to work! Robin!To the McMobile!