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generaljanuary I've been thinking about a lot of things lately. My future, mostly. It just seem like I've jumped the gun in this whole life thing. Failure to launch and all that. I used to blame it on my depression but that's getting pretty old seeing as I've been off medication for six months. (Unsupervisedly, but still.) It was just too easy. "No I don't have any plan about my job / going back to school / getting my own place because I never planned on living past 20" Well guess what, I'm 20 and a half (sounds like a 4 year old) and I'm still there, and not planning on going anywhere. So I better get back into gear or else my future is not going to go anywhere either.
Mostly, it's the good old fears.
You won't get a new job because you're stupid / fat / incompetant
You won't get back in school, they'd never want someone who dropped out twice
No ones is ever going to love you because you are ugly and damaged
When they come to the front of my mind, they are mostly fleeting. I can take comfort in other thoughts.
You have a stunning experience of the work market and you are loyal and motivated.
You are cultivated and opinionated, you have dreams and goals.
You can always count on your friends and family they will never desert you.
And if all fails i can always take out Kiki the blood-hungry yo-yo. It does help with focusing and calming erratic thoughts. :)
Each day should be a new oportunity.
Right?
Mostly, it's the good old fears.
You won't get a new job because you're stupid / fat / incompetant
You won't get back in school, they'd never want someone who dropped out twice
No ones is ever going to love you because you are ugly and damaged
When they come to the front of my mind, they are mostly fleeting. I can take comfort in other thoughts.
You have a stunning experience of the work market and you are loyal and motivated.
You are cultivated and opinionated, you have dreams and goals.
You can always count on your friends and family they will never desert you.
And if all fails i can always take out Kiki the blood-hungry yo-yo. It does help with focusing and calming erratic thoughts. :)
Each day should be a new oportunity.
Right?
