When You Were Young

[generaljanuary]

I'm going out for coffee tonight with two of my oldest friends. We rarely get to see each other these days, but every few months we try to plan a little something. Though I love them dearly and am eager to hear about their lives I always feel awkward when we meet like this.

They are driven and successful. Have been in healthy relationships with great guys for years. One of them is an internatonal flight attendant and the other is about to enter a doctorate in psychology. Our other friend can't be with us tonight because she is currently in Europe for her thesis in biology.

I dropped out of college. Twice. I've never been in a relationship, never even been on a date. I don't have much to bring to the table. :|

I'm still going to have a good time, though. Because I love them. Have loved them for over 15 years. And I miss them and the easier times they remind me of. :)



ETA: Aah, Fannie, when are you going to learn that things are never as they seem. *wistful head shake* :)

Comments

[contrition.livejournal.com]

I know exactly how you feel. I've always been doing less/experiencing less than my friends from high-school and when I visit with them, I feel like I don't have much to contribute or that my stories will seem trite in comparison to all that they're doing.

I think that the best thing to do is to take into account that they love you and I'm sure all they care about is that you're happy. It takes some people longer than others to figure out what path they want to go down or for things to come their way. It doesn't make anyone better or worse. Plus, you still have things to look forward to that they won't have the joy of experiencing for the first time again! I don't know if that makes sense, but yeah. :)

I hope you have fun, sweets, and try not to feel too awkward or let anything get you down.

[fanny-moon.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much, bb. <3 You're very well-spoken, knowing that you sometimes feel the same way makes me feel better. :)

[contrition.livejournal.com]

Aw, thanks! <3 I definitely do, It's like the freaking story of my life, lmao. I hope you had a really good time. :)