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Jun. 30th, 2005 05:07 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
generaljanuaryJeez... (first time ever I say that word ^^u)
So many things happened in the last few days...
Prom was nice, but I drank waaaaaaay too much at the after prom party and went and told every one I know,(and a lot of people I don't really know) that I'm bisexual and what a fat piece of shit I think I am and how I tried to commit suicide last year.
I'm sooooo embarassed... No body called in two days so I guess they all A) think I'm a nutcase B)lied when they said they liked me C)don't know how to treat me now D) all of the above.
I almost had a panic attack at the prom, which freaked Jessy out a bit.
Anyway, I played drunken matchmake and got Audrey and Francis together with my almighty bisexual knowledge of both sexes. Well that was fun.
Well anyway, it confirmed that I don't mind pity. Pity is a form of attention and attention seeking whores like me will take affection when it comes along.
I got back hom at 30 past noon the next day. I wasn't even tired.
We had to leave the party at around 6 in the morning, which sucked since I was still pretty drunk and I still wanted to talk. So I bribed Audrey and Marie-Hélène with my drunken chatter all the bus ride home. I think everyone was pretty much shocked to know all these things about me.
I was so sure everybody knew about my pitiful attempted suicide. Turns no body fucking knew exept Jessy. And I was so sure no body cared, turs out they all made this é_è concerned face which I so love to see.
It's so cool not being affraid of people. I talked to so many people I didn't know and they were all so nice with me.
Something I'm really happy about is talking with Danny. Yeah, that guy who was my first love when I was like 12. I pined over him for like 3 years and we dated for about 7 days (aah, to be a kid again...) He had left the city for a few years ad came back last year but yeah, being the weird person that I am I was too scared to talk to him. And anyway, I tried to teach him to be nice to his girlfriend(she's an adorable sweetheart) and stuff and he was really nice and really cool with me (yeah, he was still drunk, so what?) it's nice to get re-aquainted with childhood friends.
So many things happened in the last few days...
Prom was nice, but I drank waaaaaaay too much at the after prom party and went and told every one I know,(and a lot of people I don't really know) that I'm bisexual and what a fat piece of shit I think I am and how I tried to commit suicide last year.
I'm sooooo embarassed... No body called in two days so I guess they all A) think I'm a nutcase B)lied when they said they liked me C)don't know how to treat me now D) all of the above.
I almost had a panic attack at the prom, which freaked Jessy out a bit.
Anyway, I played drunken matchmake and got Audrey and Francis together with my almighty bisexual knowledge of both sexes. Well that was fun.
Well anyway, it confirmed that I don't mind pity. Pity is a form of attention and attention seeking whores like me will take affection when it comes along.
I got back hom at 30 past noon the next day. I wasn't even tired.
We had to leave the party at around 6 in the morning, which sucked since I was still pretty drunk and I still wanted to talk. So I bribed Audrey and Marie-Hélène with my drunken chatter all the bus ride home. I think everyone was pretty much shocked to know all these things about me.
I was so sure everybody knew about my pitiful attempted suicide. Turns no body fucking knew exept Jessy. And I was so sure no body cared, turs out they all made this é_è concerned face which I so love to see.
It's so cool not being affraid of people. I talked to so many people I didn't know and they were all so nice with me.
Something I'm really happy about is talking with Danny. Yeah, that guy who was my first love when I was like 12. I pined over him for like 3 years and we dated for about 7 days (aah, to be a kid again...) He had left the city for a few years ad came back last year but yeah, being the weird person that I am I was too scared to talk to him. And anyway, I tried to teach him to be nice to his girlfriend(she's an adorable sweetheart) and stuff and he was really nice and really cool with me (yeah, he was still drunk, so what?) it's nice to get re-aquainted with childhood friends.
